the creeper

So the creeper, devil that is, can try to come in and try to attack your thoughts and freedom....I have experienced this hardcore the last week or so. I was confusing conviction and condemnation. Being tormented/taunted by guilt-related thoughts, which would make me not want to read my bible out of fear and keep my head low. BUT I have not given up, I have not backed down, I have kept the faith and continued to pursue God in the WORD, prayer, and devotion, as well as responding to the Lord's pursuit. Victory is arising, bit by bit, the devil is being defeated in my thought life...victory has already been won for me at calvary. It's a continued process of taking every thought captive to the word of God, every day we must think on things that are pure, lovely, just, and right. During this time I was so fearful to go to the bible because it was at these moments the thoughts were the worst, but I would do it anyways because I knew I had to. What I didn't realize is that this was the devils strategy, bringing thoughts full force the moment I was about to read truth...he wanted to keep me stuck in lies and he knows the truth is in the word. If he can get us away from the word, then he can surely get us out of the church, and eventually out of the christian faith...ughh he is nasty. I thought that God was unleashing something crazy on me every time I went to the word, that it was Him speaking, but it felt so horrible that I didn't understand how it could be my Father God..until DUH it was the devil trying to disrupt me, get me off track bc he knows I'm on the brink of something new and he doesnt want that power unleashed through me. So I talked to a friend today and just so happen to share the struggle going on and he was stunned because the exact SAME thing has been happening to him the last 5 days or so....so we felt encouraged and relieved to have another who was/is dealing with the same stuff. The devil tried to get us so caught up in shame and such that we couldn't keep our heads up...what a way to get us ineffective for the Kingdom. Well anyways, after much prayer, crying out to God, and asking others to pray, the Lord has brought more peace and thoughts are being blocked out Hallelujah! The main point here is that I didn't realize that the devil really can try to come in and attack strongly on me...so I thought maybe it was God, but that doesn't make sense at ALL! But the truth is the devil and his schemes cannot stay, he is a defeated foe, under my feet! I am loved by the King, and right now I can see this mental picture of God just whipping down the devil for my sake, saying.."NO no that's MY DAUGHTER!"
Well thankfully, as I have praye