Father's Love, relentless!

Tonight I went to bible study...OH so GOOD. Robin is teaching us the book of James...been on chapter 1 for like 3 months haha, YES! Anyways, God put me in this bible study for such a time as this...defnitely needed the teaching. So far this year my life has transformed a lot, God has given me a new joy and confidence, a deeper trust and understanding of His love. BUT there is SO much MORE work to be done in me with these areas, so as a result of the teachings at bible study I have applied new things in my relationship with the Father...like admitting that I am helpless and that God is powerful, asking God to govern and take control of specific areas of my life, and coming to terms with past-present-future. Recently, the devil has tried to steal my confidence and joy...trying to get me stuck in thinking low of myself. BUT I won't let him do this, He has no control over me. I will allow the word of God, the truth to be spoke from my lips, to silence the thgouhts the devil brings my way. I will not give in and I will have victory, I already have victory..Jesus has already won it all for me! Anyways so about LOVE...Robin said tonight that if we were to write down the way we truly see ourselves on a piece of paper, what would it say? Prolly a lot of bad things, but this is the problem...we need to see ourselves as the Father does! We need to know how much we are loved and cherished by the King. I feel I got a huge revelation of this during the past 8 months, but God wants to take me even deeper in it now and I see that..the work is not done...its never done! I need to know how much God loves me and so I will park in His Love to get this deep within me. The enemy wants to keep you in the place of thinking down on yourself so you will not receive God's love...bc what stops us from coming boldy to the throne is the way we see ourselves. What will God do first in the area of your life that you ask Him to govern? He will LOVE because the reason there is a problem is because of a lack of love in that particular area. So our thoughts must be changed about ourselves...Phil 4:8, 2 Cor. 10:15. Is what I'm thinking that same as God is thinking, is it edifying myself? If not, refuse it, take it captive to the Word of God, and speak out the truth about what God says you are. WOO hoooo! Hallelujah to that...powerful! Also random to add, this whole bible study is concentrating a lot about the trials in life..SOOOO GOOOD, I have really learned some key things...like that we sit in the trial all annoyed because of the process, the WAIT...we complain about waiting, but do you know how long the Father waits on us? WOW...the Father's patient endurance is beautiful and precious and so loving. WOW...gotta stop focusing on the wait, and giving more of the Praise. This whole purification process, allowing God to step in and take FULL CONTROL in some areas...ooo buddy hard, but again, so good. This is my next step...seeing myself the way God sees me. First is was just talking openly a lot with my mom and working on that relationship in general...lots of work to do there, and to add now is finding my identity..LOVE