Endurance! Determination!

Alright so every person is usually going through some kind of trial. The point is to endure the trial, to not run away from it, but to face it and to ask God to take control and be your master in it! AH, and we freak out during the trials, wondering "what if" "what if" "what if" type junk....God wants to turn that "what if" jargin into trust and security in Him...that He is faithful,that He is good, and that His plans for us are for good and not for evil. He wants us to get to a place where we are confident He will come through. I know my God is a faithful God, I look back on my life and see all the times He has been so faithful. The trials I'm in are not easy, but I know without a shadow of a doubt that my God will save the day, that my God will grant me with good through it all. What I NEED to work on is finding more PATIENCE and peace throughout the trials. The joy of Lord has been my strength a lot of the time, but I need more patient endurance! I need it so badly...I am too anxious to get outta the trial when I need to let God work in me and through me until what needs to be done is DONE! This is what I so desperately need, patient endurance. I need to stand still and wait patiently for my Lord to act. It's not that I want to get stuck in the trial, but that I wanna be changed through the trial. I want to be transformed internally, gaining more patience, endurance, trust, peace, joy...etc...in the LORD! ah!

Also, been so determined...making new decisions, doing new things. Today hauled shrubs back and forth to a recycling center and mowing and etc. Hot weather, physical work, getting dirty....I like it! I like trying new things and working hard outside. If only I could capture this hard work thing around the house then that would be amazing! So today, instead of just doing whatever this afternoon, I am gonna look for things to accomplish...determination yes! The last few weeks I have gained a lot more drive to get things done, but I want this to be a daily thing for me....so this area I am asking God to help me in. Let's do it yes! Can't wait till it becomes so much more real to me. Making the most of everyday, serving the Lrod and others diligently. It starts at home!